I've been in Makassar for 4 months. It means 1 month again I'll back to Java. I'll back to Psychology of State University of Semarang (Unnes). I don't know what should I reveal now. Should I be happy? Should I be sad? I'm so confused. My oldest sister asked me why I feel so gloomy because of this. In a letter of assignment is writen that this psychology student exchanges held from September 3, 2015 till January 31, 2016. Hmm... Almost... Almost.....ASDFGHJKL :"""
Should I be sad?
YES!! Why? Because I don't know when I can have a chance to visit this place again. When I can meet my friends who live at this place again. I don't know lah.
Should I be happy?
YES!! Because I'll meet my dad, my family, my cousins, my lecturers. I can feel the atmosphere of my house. I really miss my HOUSE. I miss its atmosphere. I miss the way we (me and my closed cousin) spent time for hangout to mall or everywhere we used to be. I miss the way I spent my time just for lying on my bed. I miss my college friends. I miss Psikopat's atmosphere as long as lecture started. But what I miss the most is the atmosphere of my house. Really peaceful. I always miss it. But I'll never get those peaceful again anyway (I think). I'll get it back if and only if I am alone at my house. So, what I miss the most is the atmosphere when I hungout with my cousin when we were at Semarang. I was so free and I get my peaceful again. And I can forget my problems hehe.
If I back I'll know the truth as soon as possible. It feels like I am waiting something and I dont know what is that. Since I joined psychology I dislike the fact that I always failed to join engineering and I feel that I was alone and I dont have anyone, my unconcious mind like saying that I'll get it again. But I don't know, it refers to what? Now, I am waiting the truth. Because I still doubt on something. Hmm... I don't know what I feel now. I am happy but also I doubt you. Because if I stared deeply I didn't find anything(?). That's what I feel now if I tell with my simple words. It is hard. I ruined my own story. But this is for me too. I just can hold it. I think there is no exchange between us for THIS TIME. So, when? The answer depends on yourself. What I need to do right now is I have to be myself at this time, because everything what I confused will get clear when I am back to Java. Just wait the time and see what will happen, still the same or someone will change. Hmm...
Oya, I miss this place. But I miss the atmosphere more hehe when I spent my time with my closed cousin. Oya I wanna change my appearance when I am back to Java. I will rarely wear jeans heheh, wearing skirt is so fun hehe.
Paragon Mall....
I miss this place. If I was bored I usually watch movie with my closed cousin at this mall. But now my closed cousin doesn't stay at Semarang again. I dont have closed friend again :"""
And this is the place where I met him after I watched Jupiter Ascending (finally) after I waited for a long long time with those gloomy hahaha..
#throwback
Okay forget it, I have to go on and it's a MUST!
Tembalang (area name nears Undip-Diponegoro University)
When I was bored my closed cousin who studied at those college will pick me to hungout to mall or another place.
At weekend, I usually stayed at her dorm room at Tembalang. Or usually she stayed at my dorm room at Sekaran, Gunungpati (area name nears Unnes-State University of Semarang)
The big reason why I like this place is "a lot of choice of food there hahaha xD)
And yeay, my beloved college, Unnes.
I miss the the canteen nears building A1 psychology heheh
I miss my Psikopat friends
I miss the way we (me and my besties) go around campus aimlessly by Unnes bus when we were free and nothing to do
(fyi, we still sat in the bus untill the bus passed the place where we catched the bus till 3 times hahaha, really akward!)
I miss this school. My senior high school. But I miss the moments more. I usually passed this building when I was on my way to back home from Semarang.
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